The End...

all the "Love Stories" do not have a happy ending... this is not a movie its a real world....
The boy died in an accident...
everyone was there at the funeral... even the girl he loved.... she was crying for him...
but yet she did not feel the love for him which he always wanted....
the girl cried for a friends death... not for her lover...
and as in the end of a fairytale we say they all live happily ever after...
i would say "They all lived happily ever after.. & his soul rest in peace"

i found the password in my friend's diary editing the last note for him!!!!
the last piece of tribute to him!!!

~~~THE END~~~ 

happy birhtday....

16th April... her birthday... called her at 12 AM to wish her, i never thought i had the guts to do that...
It was her birthday.. so it had to be her day...
but it turned out to be my day even!!! 

rocking and rolling...

hey guys I'm back, actually I don't write much now... texting her takes very much of my time!!! and its far more enjoyable than writing poems which she might never read!!!

तेरी इन आँखों में, इन बातों में, रातें गुज़र जाएगी....

तुने ये क्या जादू, कम्भाक्त अब नींद कहाँ आयेगी!!!

I'm really going crazy day and nights thinking about her!!! but she really gives me the energy to do anything in life!!! now when i can see the hopes of getting her... I'm working harder on my future... so that I f she ever becomes mine I should be able to give her all the happiness that she deserves!!!

It started yet agian...

She said sorry for her rude behaviour...
I wasn't ever able to feel bad for anything she did...
Everything she did was forgotten and forgiven....
like a father forgives his kid...
she asked me to be her friend and
forget what wrong happened between us....
not knowing she gave an aim to my life...
earlier it was just a fuss!!!
yeah she used to mock me earlier...
but even that made me smile...
but now life feels heaven...
it has never felt like this in a long while!!!
she today said that she found me very friendly... and she shouldn't had been rude!!! we are friends again!!!
god is great... after what happened yesterday.. & today her message!!! god i have fallen in love with you as well!!!

Today was a Fairytale!!!

hey, folks.... I tried rhyming today.. but i guess my vocabulary just failed to listen what my mind ordered it.... It was just totally and completely controlled by my heart today!!! so forgive me if i goof up somewhere in this blog... i don't have a total control on myself.... I entered my password wrong 3 times.....
I have heard that if your love is true someday it will find its way... i realized it today!!!
we spent an hour together... though not alone, there was a bunch of people... but it seemed as if only we two were there... just looking at each other!!! 
Smiling, Talking, Fighting playfully with each other!!!
I'll just keep pinching me every now and then to make myself believe its true!!!
This day had to be a fairytale... it had such a beautiful end!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

O girl you are so fine!!! so pure... so refine...
There will always be a pain that you are not mine....
I just wanted you to be with me life long...
I be yours and you be mine!!!

You never gave me a chance,
I would have made you understand...
What is your value in my life
and where do you stand!!!
Never gave me time to show my love...
You wanted me to be anonymous life long..
Where i was thinking you to become ma everything...
Yeah... I accept it... I was wrong!!!!

Efforts to know me you never made..
wasted ma tears... I usellesly cried,
Not a mistake of yours, all mine...
Saw you just once & just died!!!!

I tried to run away..
but was uanable to,
You are the centre of my life and
I revolve around you to and fro...
Tried to forget your smile..
but was thinking about it every while...
Tried to forget about your voice...
but every thought of that made me rejoice..
I thought that forgetting you won't be a big deal..
but love for you is all what i feel!!!
You are not a part of me...
still you can't be separated!!!
It seems as if you are the one..
for whom I always waited!!!!

The story is....

We met just by a coincidence in an IIT coaching classes.... and there was a sweet beginning of our friendship!!!
We also landed up in the same high-school... again just a coincidence!!!
She dropped the plans for IIT and moved to different tuitions... That place was my second home... & now i was feeling that this is not all coincidence!!!
I started taking interest in her... gathering all the information which i could!!!
She was the kind of girl i thought of spending my life with!!! and i don't know when i fell for her!!!


i wanted her!!! i din't knew how... but i just wanted her to be mine!!!
she came to know this and she was provoked!!!
she din't believed in love and was highly upset coz of me bringing love between our friendship!!!
I tried to persuade her and a hatred was developed in her heart for me!!!


Only coz we have to face each other everyday... we now behave like friends!!!!


i was born to love her,
i'm doing so,
and will continue to do that.....